The Beginning

Not a typical New Years Resolution. Not a typical weight loss need.

100. I need to lose 100 pounds. Can you imagine that! LOL ! It's crazy!

*deep breath*

I joined Weight Watchers. My first meeting was 1/2/10.

I've had my awakening. For years and years I knew my weight was out of control. Like so many people, tried very different things. I even looked into lap band surgery.

I'm not sure why I chose Weight Watchers as the program for me. All I know is that I'm glad I did because it's amazing.

My starting weight: 263

My first week, I lost 2.6
My second week, I lost 5.0
My third week I lost 2.6
My fourth week, I lost 4.4

I have lost 5% of my body weight! My only goal is 2 pounds a week in weight loss. In 12 months I want to have made a dramatic change in my weight. I'm not talking about bikini time. I just want to be "normal". I don't want to be obese anymore.

The first thing I dealt with in the first few week was forgiveness. I forgave myself. It was amazing. It freed me. I was no longer disgusted to look at myself in the mirror. I didn't care what I looked like on the treadmill. I felt like it was OK to move on. It may not make sense to people when I say how I began my process, but it makes sense to me. Letting go of the past and moving forward with a new life routine has been exhilarating.

Exercising has been KEY besides eating with the weight watchers guide. We moved the treadmill to the family room and now I'm doing it. I'm doing it! Walking 45 minutes a day at least 2 miles.
It DOES gets hard to do it some days. But then as I'm standing there wanting to get off the treadmill before the 45 minutes have past I tell myself this,

"This is Hard ??!! This is NOT hard! I'm walking on a treadmill! How dare I think this is HARD! HARD is being homeless; HARD is surviving an earthquake; HARD is fighting cancer; HARD is being a soldier at war; HARD is not having legs to walk; HARD is leaving your family for a year to make a new life in a new country; HARD is losing a child. STAY ON THIS DAMN TREADMILL AND DON'T YOU DARE SAY THIS IS HARD!!

Next thing I know, I snap out of my excuses I finish my entire 45 minutes!!

Who knows what this year will bring, but I do know that I won't go down for not trying.